Friday, January 11, 2008
Went to school today...wasn't exactly a great day. People are stupid. I'm sick and tired of people laughing and carrying on like nothing has even happened. And to think...these people put on a good show of caring! What freakin' talented actors they are! Argghhh! Somebody needs to beat them with a hot French fry and beat their arses ninja style. Because I happen to be so happy that they're in such a damn GOOD mood.
NOT!!And by the way, one person told me that she was casted for Twilight online. Lord knows I'd love to be in that movie. Dear Edward...darn it-I cannot wait until Midnight Sun and Breaking Dawn come out. I have got to find something to read! My patience sure is running out...with
EVERYTHING.
Labels: actors, death, french fries, high school, ninjas
LOVES.
4:03 PM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
It's unbelievable how sucky my senior year has been. And not just for me, but for everyone. One of my best friends died in a terrible car crash yesterday morning...when I found out I was just in complete shock. Not dearest Farrah! But, it was so and I cried my eyes out with others who loved her just as much. It's really hard...I easily skipped out on school today. There's no way in hell that I'm going around people that don't feel exactly the same way that I do about it, but yet still ask me what's wrong. My best friend died, dammit! And, hell maybe they have a reason for being so damn numb. Five other people have already died this school year alone. What a great senior year. Please tell me you sense the sarcasm. Actually, I really wanna freakin scream! She shouldn't have died. She was one of the sweetest, kindest, and soft spoken people that I and my friends ever knew. And she will be remembered, for sure. Man, I was so tired and worn out from all the crying I did yesterday. It was so sad when we found out. Britney, Kayla, and I held each other for the longest time, allowing our tears to soak through each others shirts. We were allowed to walk around outside, to get some air...then we went to the conference room...and then Hannah came. I love Hannah-she was perhaps closer to Farrah than any of us were. Perhaps the only highlight of yesterday, though, was when we all left school early and just chilled at Hannah's house. We saved the reminiscing for the park. Everyone who loved her...Hannah, Kimmy, James, Chris, Samantha, Michael, Britney, and me...were there. It was our own little ceremony, meant to let the spirit of Farrah know how much we love her...and also to lighten the mood. I'm not sure what happens after death. I do believe in Heaven and Hell...I just would like to know for sure that spirits watch over us. I want to know for sure that I have my own guardian angel and that I have paranormal protection and guidance. Whatever is true, I'm sure that all of us who were at the park believe that Farrah was watching over us. Farrah, we love you-you are a guardian angel to all of us :) Crap, I am going to cry again...
Labels: angels, crying, death, Farrah, friends, spirits, tears
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9:22 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Yay!!! No school for two and a half weeks! Heck freakin' yeah!!! I can't wait until Christmas! Too bad I'm not gonna see any friends for a while, though. :( One of my friends grandparents died last night. I hate it when my friends cry-it makes me wanna cry :( Oh well...she'll be happy soon enough. Lord knows our school talent show probably didn't help her. I mean, it wasn't all bad. One of my guy friends played the guitar and then one of his friends(who I'm not that well acquainted with) played Fire by Hendrix. It was freakin' awesome! Yeah! But, more than enough sucked. I'm a senior, which means that I've seen maybe 7 or 8 school talent shows, so it was expected. Oh well. Guess what? My intern teacher actually got me a Christmas gift! I was actually surprised when she handed me a bag, and was like "Hey, this is for you!"(or something like that). She got me a Baby Phat makeup box and she gave me $20.00! Groovy! It's great to feel loved :) After all, the Beatles said "All you need is love!"
Labels: Christmas, crying christmas break, death, guitars, Hendrix, intern, love, talent shows, the Sound of Music
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4:35 PM
